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I’ll keep this short and sweet!  I absolutely cannot get myself started.  No excuses, all whining aside, I just can’t get into health mode.  How in the HELL can I get off my rear and dedicate myself.  My Mexico trip is growing closer by the day!!!

Ok, so today I woke up at 6am, after hitting snooze about 4 times.  My alarm was set for 5:05 so that I could get on the treadmill for about 30min.  Needless to say-Ididn’t do that.  So I woke, walked to the coffee pot, turned it on and then ate a big peice of KING CAKE-Im from cajun country! Drank 2 cups of coffee for.  Then ate Jambalya, potato salad and more king cake for lunch.  After school(teacher) I ate about 3 big peices of king cake again! Why do I even have it in the house? 

Here comes the schizo part.  After I finished the cake- I got on the treadmill for 30 min. (350 cals) Then did crunches, 3 sets of 12 lunges and squats.  Supper-light salad with water.  See what I mean by “schizo” .  Why can’t I always behave like this??? It sucks:(

While on my treadmill, I began thinking.  I can burn about 325 calories running for 30 minutes.  By the end of that, I am really sweating.  All I can think is “all of that work, and I’ve only burned off 325 calories.”  That just doesn’t seem like a lot to me.  What is that? Maybe my breakfast.  My question is- are the calories that I take in through food the same kind of calories that I burn while exercising?  Do they equal one another- you know- one for one?? If that is the case, I feel like I need to work out like 10 hours a day to actually loose some weight.  Can someone set the record straight for me? 

 Well, I actually started “trying” about a week age.  You know, you wake up in the morning, get on the treadmill, sweat like a big fat hog, and you’re feeling dedicated.  Lunchtime goes pretty well-salad and light ranch(just a table spoon)- and I’m feeling pretty energetic.  Then, the dreaded darkness appears.  It flies in like a dark knight on a wild mustang.   For some reason, for me darkness brings the temptations of relaxation(i.e. alcohol) and  uncontrollable hunger.  I can’t seem to fight it off.  It overcomes me like dreadful, deadly disease.   Yadda, yadda, yadda….. Back to reality.  I am going on a trip to Mexico in five months.  I now weigh 160 pounds, and am 5ft 4 in.  I currently wear about a size 10.  I would say that I’m in ok shape, workout regularly, but I will be accompanied by two other women on my trip.  One wieghs about 110, and the other runs marathons (you do the math).  So needless to say, Im the fat girl.  I need some serious help!!! Cant seem to get myself started!!!!HELP!!!